I'm still coming to terms with all of it.
All of it being, autism. And if I'm being honest, I'm afraid. I'm scared of the forever of this disorder.
I just stare into my child's eyes, hoping I'm teaching him, hoping I'm helping him, hoping it's effective. It being my ability to connect.
I get anxious when I let myself worry about Aksel's future. When I ask 'will he' questions. Like:
I just want as every other parent in the world prior to me has already said (or thought), "I just want more for my child than I had."
Or something like that...
On a different note, I didn't list the positives from our diagnosis appointment last week.
What our doctor complimented Aksel for:
If I haven't ever said it, I have a sweet, sensitive child who loves to be touched, tickled, played with. Only difference, he's not talking, pointing, or participating in situations of joint attention.
Regardless, I love my child for who he is. Autism, or not.
I'm just learning to accept it, graciously.
PS - We have our first appointment with BabyNet tomorrow.
PPS - Will you please, please, please vote for my blog below?
All of it being, autism. And if I'm being honest, I'm afraid. I'm scared of the forever of this disorder.
I just stare into my child's eyes, hoping I'm teaching him, hoping I'm helping him, hoping it's effective. It being my ability to connect.
I get anxious when I let myself worry about Aksel's future. When I ask 'will he' questions. Like:
Will he assimiliate?
Will he have friends?
Will he attend normal kindergarten classes? (our current goal)
I just want as every other parent in the world prior to me has already said (or thought), "I just want more for my child than I had."
Or something like that...
On a different note, I didn't list the positives from our diagnosis appointment last week.
What our doctor complimented Aksel for:
- for not being a picky eater
- for not experiencing sleep difficulties
- for not refusing affection or touch
If I haven't ever said it, I have a sweet, sensitive child who loves to be touched, tickled, played with. Only difference, he's not talking, pointing, or participating in situations of joint attention.
Regardless, I love my child for who he is. Autism, or not.
I'm just learning to accept it, graciously.
PS - We have our first appointment with BabyNet tomorrow.
PPS - Will you please, please, please vote for my blog below?
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babynet is GREAT! Take any & all help they offer, even if you don't think you need it. Any services he qualifies for might help when it comes time to write an IEP for kindergarten.
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