So, we're nearly a month in this whole parenting thing, and I can honestly say, motherhood is difficult!
I mean, it's a combination of so much! I'm particular, maybe even careful about how I word this entry, because I have dealt, personally, with so many emotions over the course of the last few weeks, that I'm actually a little confused about the parenting experience and my opinion thereof!?
In writing this blog, I want to be as honest as I possibly can. So, let me say... I respect the process, but it's one I'm only beginning to understand. I don't even know if "understand" is the right word?
Prior to becoming a parent, I thought things would be finite. I thought there would be a right and a wrong way to handle the situation, any situation.... I was assured and felt confident I'd be capable of discerning. Oh boy! Oh sweet little boy, was I completely ignorant? I knew there would be difficult decisions to make and heart-wrenching, stressful moments, but it's so much more! Things aren't as clear as I romantically imagined. It physically hurts to hear my child cry. It's totally misleading and difficult to read and hear a million different, contradicting opinions about how you should raise your child, or address certain issues. I want the best for my child, that I question myself continually throughout. I do realize that the mistakes I make will not, at this point in the lifelong endeavor, be held against me. I'm trying to listen to and respect my instincts... not lose it and freak out!
With all of these personal mutterings of possible inadequacy and gut-wrenching baby love, we have made many strides. Little man now has a belly button! He's moved up in diaper size and has grown an inch and a half. He's in the 97% percentile for height! I also observed my cheeky fellow as he knowingly eyeballed my bosom last night. When I unsnapped my top (as a bit of a test), he did a funky baby dance/fist pump jig. I was tickled! He's learning so much about the world around him.
As long as I do everything with love. Thanks for the advice, Dad!
I mean, it's a combination of so much! I'm particular, maybe even careful about how I word this entry, because I have dealt, personally, with so many emotions over the course of the last few weeks, that I'm actually a little confused about the parenting experience and my opinion thereof!?
In writing this blog, I want to be as honest as I possibly can. So, let me say... I respect the process, but it's one I'm only beginning to understand. I don't even know if "understand" is the right word?
Prior to becoming a parent, I thought things would be finite. I thought there would be a right and a wrong way to handle the situation, any situation.... I was assured and felt confident I'd be capable of discerning. Oh boy! Oh sweet little boy, was I completely ignorant? I knew there would be difficult decisions to make and heart-wrenching, stressful moments, but it's so much more! Things aren't as clear as I romantically imagined. It physically hurts to hear my child cry. It's totally misleading and difficult to read and hear a million different, contradicting opinions about how you should raise your child, or address certain issues. I want the best for my child, that I question myself continually throughout. I do realize that the mistakes I make will not, at this point in the lifelong endeavor, be held against me. I'm trying to listen to and respect my instincts... not lose it and freak out!
With all of these personal mutterings of possible inadequacy and gut-wrenching baby love, we have made many strides. Little man now has a belly button! He's moved up in diaper size and has grown an inch and a half. He's in the 97% percentile for height! I also observed my cheeky fellow as he knowingly eyeballed my bosom last night. When I unsnapped my top (as a bit of a test), he did a funky baby dance/fist pump jig. I was tickled! He's learning so much about the world around him.
As long as I do everything with love. Thanks for the advice, Dad!
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